Updated: May 3
This free horse is the most valuable horse I have. I have spent so much time, money, energy and love trying to fix him. In turn, I gained an incredible education, fierceness, and personal growth in colt starting/problem horse training, all the potential physical issues, and self-regulating my anxiety and emotions.
A few years ago, I felt like a failure. I had been so concerned about what people would think of me if I couldn’t get back on this horse. I questioned my dream of training horses and how far I could go. I still worked on this horse and mastered ground work. I still worked other problem horses and sat some rough rides quite well. I have this
video, but didn’t want to post it because I didn’t want to hear the advise, comments, and “you should have done…” I know what I should have done, I know what I should do. After all of the vet work, chiro, and advise from my chosen mentor, it is only the mental trauma and lack of confidence that keeps me from swinging my leg over and staying there. I actually have sat in the saddle and quickly hopped off. This is the year. And not only am I saying I will try my hardest, but I’ve also got another trainer lined up so that if I can’t do it, I haven’t failed yet.